I
It’s so easy
To slip and be
Lost to the void
Why does it pull me, make it so heavy
Why is it easy
To fall
Why is it so hard
To stand
Enthralled
Why is it hard to crawl
Out of it all
What
Is
The
Void
What is killing me, why is it killing me
Why so slowly
Why so slowly
II
Imagine truth
Believe it like it’s meant for you
And then destroy
It all
A wrecking ball
Of clear resolve
What does that mean
A clean slate redeems
Everything?
Acceptance obliterates all that’s been?
What does that say
About anything
About everything
We spread our gospels
Anyway
A plague of ideas
To help us feel
Less
To help us not feel
For each other
Help us
To keep us
To help us
Help me
Please us
To keep us
Jesus was a name we knew
An idea that grew
From generations of fear
From thousands of years
From thousands of mouths
Telling a story from ear to ear
From year to year
For thousands of years
And we hold it so dearly
How much do we hear
How much is the same
Was I told, did I hear,
did I learn?
What’s the difference when the bottom line
Doesn’t mind
Lying
When we’re retelling
Inventing the story
Next year
A thousand years
To be shaped
In a way that pleases our peers
Each person adding a word here
Misunderstanding a tone
Misdirected and disoriented by fear
III
Be brave
Stand and witness
True and ruined
It hurts
To break
But hold
Become
Something
Beyond
What you’ve been told
Beyond
The same old
Story
Become
The glory
The glow
The curiosity that finds the hidden gold
Or be left always waiting to break
To be broken
Waiting
To be blown open
And here we are
You’re always waiting
I’m always waiting
We’re always watching
Each other
Waiting for someone to break
Waiting for the moment
To finally take us
Beyond
We wait
And we’re waiting
Forever taking
From each other
To pass the grating days
Waiting for the beginning
For something to happen
For it to begin
Waiting
For the ending
While it’s happening
While it’s all been happening
All along
While I was calling out
For someone
Anyone
Anything
Something
Nothing
Please, nothing
But something
Waiting for someone to take my hand
To stand with me
To help me
Save myself
From the flames at my wings
Waiting for anything
To save me from the things
I haven’t done
That I’m not doing
Waiting for shadows that will never step into the light
Waiting for blindness to revoke my sight
I’ll wait until the end of time
If only
It tells me
I’ve been crazy
I’ve been waiting for nothing
I’ve been baited
By my own brain
To wait for the ending
Before the beginning
Has a chance to move
Beyond
The starting line
IV
How
Friend
I love you
I love you
How do I tell you
How do I help you
With something so
Natural
Lost in time
And practice
Against
Nature
How do I help myself
Now, knowing
Evil
Isn’t evil
But people don’t treat people like people
How do you
Find the balance
The will
To embrace
What you hate
And not become
The monster
You run
From
How do you become
Right
What is
My life
What is
Wrong
What is
The light in your eye
When you sing me your love song
What is the light
And why do I recognize
What am I
Is it safe
To be alive
To be mine
The eye
In my mind
Is it mine
To love myself and be alive
Is it ok
To feel this way
And still not feel ok
Is there an end
To anything?