Drunk Haircut

Everything I loved
I lost

Don’t make the mistake
Of thinking
You’re different

You’re not

Don’t think I’m afraid
Of losing you

Even as my deepest pain
I’m ready
And waiting

I get drunk
And give myself a haircut
You think I give a fuck

I get drunk
And give myself a haircut

Did I fill your cup?
Can you get the fuck up?
And be yourself
For a minute or twelve
Take care of yourself
And get the fuck out
Of my face

Wake the fuck up
Get over yourself
Grow the fuck up
And fill your own cup

Stand the fuck up
Or go lay down
In some other part of town
Please

Why the fuck
Are you just
A shadow
Of your true self
A cowardly mockery you’ve placed on a shelf
Why the fuck
Did you give up

And leave me alone
In this graveyard of fools
And broken tools
Used
For nothing

Why the fuck
Did you give up

When the fuck
Did I give up

What’s the question
Where’s my cup
I need a fill up

Please
Help me
Please don’t
Abandon me
Please
Free yourself
From that fucking shelf
Before I break myself
And burn it all down

Please
Believe me
Please see
Yourself

Cowards and Flowers

I’m trapped
In a room
Full of silent cowards
They act like mice
But their heads turn like owls

Feed them twice
And they’ll cling to you for life
Feed them at night
And you’ll be sleeping under flowers

Never trust the gut
Of a starving spineless coward

No one says a word
I speak into the void
No one says a word
Every eye avoids me

Cause no one says a word
We just repeat the things we’ve heard
Unprepared and burned by hurt
And never dare a naked word
Because we’re way too fucking scared
For that

Standing out is death
By billion rats
In hats
With teeth and traps
And all of that
Madness

Show me how you care
Show me something real and rare
A thought that’s not prepared
If you dare

No wait
A face
No walls
In place

That truly doesn’t care
If it’s seen bare
And aware
And staring
Into the void
Carelessly

Who cares
Right?

Why are you scared
Who are you scared of
Why are you scared
What are you so fucking scared of

Your face
My grace
My grave
My love

Fuck it
Fall
Fuck the monsters
We’re all androids
After all
(repeat ad infinitum)