The Degeneration of Love

IV

Cascades
Broken colours
Mirrors
In shards of light

(cliche)

Ideas
Broken glass
Lasting far past
Endless silence sight

(cliche!)

Night is roaring
At the fading light

(always the same)

III

And nothing passes
In mirrors
Cutting down horizons
To shine an endless reflection
Of itself
All over my breaking face

Arrange the colours
Mechanical lines divide
To make the spectrum shine
Through my eyes

To change my mind
Arrange the shards of glass
Refractions blasted
To hide the sun, stains, past
Trick my mind
To paint a lovely false sublime

(The blinding light is fine
They always say
But they always look away…)

II

Choking down my will to breathe
To please
I laugh at my mind

Close my eyes
To hide
From life
And living
And you

Don’t remind me
This time
Can’t fix my eyes with your lies

There’s nowhere to hide

…But there are places to fly
When you understand why

I

Spirals of oozing concrete
Form
To point the way

Endless tongues into the mouth of a monster
Sweet lullabies
To make us stay

A little longer
Always feeling, falling away
And I’m going to do it again today

…And nothing passes
In mirrors
Cutting down horizons
To shine an endless reflection
Of itself
All over my broken face

The Fuckboy Twitch

Sittin’ at the sex clinic
Swiping on Tinder
Hottie sits across from me
Starin’ at my finger

Gotta get off
Gotta get off
Gotta get outta here

So many girls
So many worlds
To enter

So many moments
For my magic fucking finger

Why, why, why,
why, why, why, why
Does she entice my lusting eyes…

Dust, disease, rash, relief
Nothing ever stops me

I’m filled and quenched and satisfied
Exhausted, fucked and pacified

I’ve eaten so much pie
That I’m permanently high
And I want more

Why, why, why, why,
why, why, why…

My monster lust
It must
Envelope you in carnal trust
Consume you, bond in sweat and musk

It needs you willing on your knees
Enthusiastic smiling treat
It needs you soft so whimper please
Beg for me

And I will give you what you need

Submit yourself before my beast
And we will break the monsters free

You look through me with smiles and say…

Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I have diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs

And you go down
I start to swell

I’ll never fight
I’ll never tell
The softness swells…

Birthday twist
The hammer hits
And breaks the bell

Keep it sweet
Impersonal

Modern metro sexandgo

Abasement Of The Masochist

Deep this wound’s revealing
I’ve kept myself from any feeling

I’ve kept myself from ever healing…

Scarred, I’m broken
Took this pain to be a token
Of my love for you

Broken down by my own virtues

Lost my way, don’t want to move
Won’t you speak
I don’t know what to do

Can’t find one thing with any value

Tell me it’s not true
Show me something good inside you
Say you hold it as a virtue

Tell me that it’s true

Deep this wound’s revealing
All these things I’ve been concealing
To spare your feelings

To keep myself from ever healing

Put your misery in me
To be
A token of my love for you

Won’t you speak
Please
I don’t know what to do

My skin is peeling
Scar myself to cry for you
To spare your feelings
I’ll keep myself from ever healing

A token of my love for you

What Lies Beyond The Inevitable Fade

I

I crave to break apart the box
Rearrange the parts
It leaves my mark

Compelled to break apart the laws
Disassemble right and wrong
Rewrite your songs

Erase your lines
(Rewrite your lies)

I’ve walked through your labyrinth
It made me sick
Your indirection

I watch you in a window, waiting
Hoping you’re that special one
To me

Ego glowing

II

Why haven’t we changed
From our archaic ways
What makes us cling to
Living this way?

Lay me down and wrap me around
A wet blanket weighed the same as
All the blood wasted
And claimed in the name of
Anyone who fits the plan
And plays the hand
That’s been programmed

I don’t know who falls
When it’s all of us
On The wall

III

I see your boxes and your longing
To break them apart
To remind you how cathartic
It can be to breathe

Tradition holds us tightly locked
Refusal of any growth beyond it
And we flaunt it
Special flag, oh we adorn it
Trapped in our minds…

IV

Why?
Do you feel the need to be
That singular, special, perfect thing to me
Why do you have to bleed
The weakness of your ego
All over me

Fucking love yourself
Try it for a day
See if you can carry that weight
Stop talking
Shut up
Do it it today

V

There’s a thousand worlds beyond
The one repeating suburban loop
You and your group
Exploit

Why do you insist
On making choices when the voices
Have been screaming NO!

I smoked a million cigarettes
And never got past my regrets

Get over yourself
Your pain isn’t wealth
It isn’t some cherished personal thing

You’re not fucking special
No matter how big the promise
The ring

VI

Your fantasy
Monogamy
Will bleed into monotony
You’ll want what you should not
And then
You’ll question your morality
And you will lose your certainty

The shadows start to breed
a thousand versions of your greed
Your ego supercedes
And you will lose yourself to me
and then repeat

You’re not alone
You’re not the only one thing
To anyone

Your fantasy
Will lead to disappointment

VII

I know, as you know, as we all know
what it feels like
Just fucking get over yourself

You’re not fucking special
You’re not unique at all
You’re just like the rest
Just a fucking shadow at best

Just a shell of what could have been
The best fucking thing that you could be

Instead you curl inside yourself
Pathetic shell hiding away
On a forgotten shelf

Goodnight, goodbye, my love…

He Was A King Before She Poisoned His Heart

I feel like a monster
Full moon burning through thin skin
I hold it in
But it’s so much stronger

It doesn’t wait at all any longer

Thoughts of you are bathed in anger
Disappointment, rage and danger
I don’t know how to reconcile
All this poison, all this bile
Built up by years
Of fighting off your fears
For you

Twilight is tricky
Bleeding into whispers
Briskly
Oh so quickly
Everything changes

I love you on your good days
The every day
Is other ways
All the time
You remind me why I hate
Everything

You play games
To put me in my place
You toy with me with many faces
To see the way I’ll react
To your eyes

The lies…
I didn’t realize
Until today
The reality of the game
We’re playing

I didn’t realize
It was a game

My heart is plagued by hatred
Every day the anger breaks me
Traffic, shopping, you-
it grates me
Every chance of love to grace me
Turns out ugly
Eventually

How long until you truly face me

That moment of love is so elating
Before you break me
My fantasy
Remind me of my hatred
And the truth to be
The reality of nothing
Between you and me

Human nature breeds misery
Break free, motherfucker